Monday, August 30, 2010

a touch of bitter

What's going on these days?  I just don't get it.  I mean, where is everyone??  No one (besides my husband) has called me or text'd me in the last 5 days.  What's the point of having a cell phone if no one wants to talk to me?  At first I didn't notice, being busy with a 16 month old and all, and trying to hold down a full-time job.  But then this morning on my train ride in, I noticed, I don't have any messages to reply to because no one had messaged me.  Really, when did that start happening??? 

Lately I haven't really been socializing with anyone outside my immediate family.  There's nothing wrong with that.  Its always good to have some quality time with the fam.  Its summertime anyways and everyone's busy, out and about and now that things are winding down and school is starting up again, maybe things will get back to normal.  Huh, normal, what is that anyways?

Maybe I'm just a little paranoid.   A few weeks ago, I met up with an old friend from college.  I work in the city and she lives and goes to grad school in the city so after numerous times of saying, "yeah, let's meet up", we finally did.  While lunching with her I learned that another friend was going to be teaching aboard in Korea and she was leaving at the end of this month.  Being so excited for her, I came back to the office and promptly send her a message on fb saying how excited I was for her and how its been so long and would love to see her before she left for her new adventure.  Then nothing.....for a couple weeks, she didn't reply.  And when she did, she was very polite and said that she was happy to hear from me and she was excited and nervous about her upcoming departure, but honestly she didn't really think she has time to see me and to keep posting pictures of my son she really enjoys them.  What did I expect?  I thought she would be more excited and maybe even want to hang out or something, but nope, not really.

Or another friend, who's mother was really sick and went to take care of her for a couple weeks.  On her return, I figured I didn't want to disturb her since she just reunited with her husband and kids after such a stressful time so I waited a week to email her.  Didn't hear back, then another week later I called and left her a voice mail, still no reply, after yet another week of calling her and not getting a reply I began to think that something maybe have happened and i ended up emailing her husband to make sure things were ok.  He was kind enough to reply back that things were OK, and that he would remind his wife to call me.  So after about a week, she did call me, and since I normally don't answer my phone at work I decided to this time seeing it was her.  When i answered she was so surprised that I picked up and she was expecting to get my voice mail, she said she would call me later and hung up.  Hmm, what was that about?  And I remember exactly 2 nights later, she finally called me and we chatted.  What I being aggressive about find out if she was ok?  And how hard is it to send some kind of acknowledgment that, yes, i received your concerned calls, i'm ok, although not really in the mood to chit chat but i will contact you soon.

Or even my own cousin, she's one of my closest friends, yet I can't say when the last time we had a heart to heart and I felt like I had her undivided attention.  When I call her, she rarely picks up, and I can't say she calls me back.  If i email her, she'll reply, usually just a sentence or two.  When I invite her over, she already has plans.  What gives??  One of her close friends is preggo and about to pop any min, and she seems to be spending time more time with her than I can remember she did with me when i was preggo.  How come?  I can't really say that I remember her even coming to see my son more than 4 times since he was born, 16 months ago.

Wow, when did that happen?  When did I become friendless?

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