Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Monday, August 30, 2010
a touch of bitter
What's going on these days? I just don't get it. I mean, where is everyone?? No one (besides my husband) has called me or text'd me in the last 5 days. What's the point of having a cell phone if no one wants to talk to me? At first I didn't notice, being busy with a 16 month old and all, and trying to hold down a full-time job. But then this morning on my train ride in, I noticed, I don't have any messages to reply to because no one had messaged me. Really, when did that start happening???
Lately I haven't really been socializing with anyone outside my immediate family. There's nothing wrong with that. Its always good to have some quality time with the fam. Its summertime anyways and everyone's busy, out and about and now that things are winding down and school is starting up again, maybe things will get back to normal. Huh, normal, what is that anyways?
Maybe I'm just a little paranoid. A few weeks ago, I met up with an old friend from college. I work in the city and she lives and goes to grad school in the city so after numerous times of saying, "yeah, let's meet up", we finally did. While lunching with her I learned that another friend was going to be teaching aboard in Korea and she was leaving at the end of this month. Being so excited for her, I came back to the office and promptly send her a message on fb saying how excited I was for her and how its been so long and would love to see her before she left for her new adventure. Then nothing.....for a couple weeks, she didn't reply. And when she did, she was very polite and said that she was happy to hear from me and she was excited and nervous about her upcoming departure, but honestly she didn't really think she has time to see me and to keep posting pictures of my son she really enjoys them. What did I expect? I thought she would be more excited and maybe even want to hang out or something, but nope, not really.
Or another friend, who's mother was really sick and went to take care of her for a couple weeks. On her return, I figured I didn't want to disturb her since she just reunited with her husband and kids after such a stressful time so I waited a week to email her. Didn't hear back, then another week later I called and left her a voice mail, still no reply, after yet another week of calling her and not getting a reply I began to think that something maybe have happened and i ended up emailing her husband to make sure things were ok. He was kind enough to reply back that things were OK, and that he would remind his wife to call me. So after about a week, she did call me, and since I normally don't answer my phone at work I decided to this time seeing it was her. When i answered she was so surprised that I picked up and she was expecting to get my voice mail, she said she would call me later and hung up. Hmm, what was that about? And I remember exactly 2 nights later, she finally called me and we chatted. What I being aggressive about find out if she was ok? And how hard is it to send some kind of acknowledgment that, yes, i received your concerned calls, i'm ok, although not really in the mood to chit chat but i will contact you soon.
Or even my own cousin, she's one of my closest friends, yet I can't say when the last time we had a heart to heart and I felt like I had her undivided attention. When I call her, she rarely picks up, and I can't say she calls me back. If i email her, she'll reply, usually just a sentence or two. When I invite her over, she already has plans. What gives?? One of her close friends is preggo and about to pop any min, and she seems to be spending time more time with her than I can remember she did with me when i was preggo. How come? I can't really say that I remember her even coming to see my son more than 4 times since he was born, 16 months ago.
Wow, when did that happen? When did I become friendless?
Lately I haven't really been socializing with anyone outside my immediate family. There's nothing wrong with that. Its always good to have some quality time with the fam. Its summertime anyways and everyone's busy, out and about and now that things are winding down and school is starting up again, maybe things will get back to normal. Huh, normal, what is that anyways?
Maybe I'm just a little paranoid. A few weeks ago, I met up with an old friend from college. I work in the city and she lives and goes to grad school in the city so after numerous times of saying, "yeah, let's meet up", we finally did. While lunching with her I learned that another friend was going to be teaching aboard in Korea and she was leaving at the end of this month. Being so excited for her, I came back to the office and promptly send her a message on fb saying how excited I was for her and how its been so long and would love to see her before she left for her new adventure. Then nothing.....for a couple weeks, she didn't reply. And when she did, she was very polite and said that she was happy to hear from me and she was excited and nervous about her upcoming departure, but honestly she didn't really think she has time to see me and to keep posting pictures of my son she really enjoys them. What did I expect? I thought she would be more excited and maybe even want to hang out or something, but nope, not really.
Or another friend, who's mother was really sick and went to take care of her for a couple weeks. On her return, I figured I didn't want to disturb her since she just reunited with her husband and kids after such a stressful time so I waited a week to email her. Didn't hear back, then another week later I called and left her a voice mail, still no reply, after yet another week of calling her and not getting a reply I began to think that something maybe have happened and i ended up emailing her husband to make sure things were ok. He was kind enough to reply back that things were OK, and that he would remind his wife to call me. So after about a week, she did call me, and since I normally don't answer my phone at work I decided to this time seeing it was her. When i answered she was so surprised that I picked up and she was expecting to get my voice mail, she said she would call me later and hung up. Hmm, what was that about? And I remember exactly 2 nights later, she finally called me and we chatted. What I being aggressive about find out if she was ok? And how hard is it to send some kind of acknowledgment that, yes, i received your concerned calls, i'm ok, although not really in the mood to chit chat but i will contact you soon.
Or even my own cousin, she's one of my closest friends, yet I can't say when the last time we had a heart to heart and I felt like I had her undivided attention. When I call her, she rarely picks up, and I can't say she calls me back. If i email her, she'll reply, usually just a sentence or two. When I invite her over, she already has plans. What gives?? One of her close friends is preggo and about to pop any min, and she seems to be spending time more time with her than I can remember she did with me when i was preggo. How come? I can't really say that I remember her even coming to see my son more than 4 times since he was born, 16 months ago.
Wow, when did that happen? When did I become friendless?
Thursday, January 14, 2010
400 reps???
talk about extreme exercising! jeez, that's my husband, when it comes to exercise, he is C-R-A-Z-Y! i wish i had that much motivation and dedication. And you would think that in the 3 years that we've been married some of that would have rubbed off on me, but nope, not even close.
We're total opposites sometimes, i crave french fries and cake and he could care less what he eats as long as its protein. Needless to say this causes many quarrels at times and not just about what's for dinner but about going out to eat, and what we're eating. Sometimes i think i over indulge in junk food to piss him off because i can't stand when he says you shouldn't be eating that. Yes i know, but I'm going to anyways. If he would just keep his mouth shut then i will come around on my own, like i have been and hope to stay on the right track for 2010. So far so good, but we're only into the 14th day of the year so it hasn't been that hard.
So today marks the day that the 'get fit for 2010' plan comes into action. Yes i will be exercising this afternoon. I had to scam a gym buddy into coming with me but I'm going to do it! i even brought my gym bag to work yesterday so i wouldn't have any excuses that i forgot my stuff. It should be interesting, i have no idea what to expect from my gym buddy (who also happens to be my boss).
I would rather workout with my husband because of his extreme ways he does challenge me to work harder just by saying 'I'm going to do this and you can try that'. We used to workout together and then i got pregnant and started sitting on my butt instead, which wasn't the best decision but oh well, now I'm paying for it. And since i cancelled my gym membership to the gym near my home, and haven't tried to renew it yet because 1) i want to make sure that i will be working out and not just throwing money away and 2) if i can get into this routine then i will be willing to add this expense each month to the budget again. In the meantime, its the office gym! Which isn't too bad actually, we have a lot of equipment and got newer equipment when we moved to this new building 2 years ago.
Well, off to get some work done and then get moving, wish me luck =)
We're total opposites sometimes, i crave french fries and cake and he could care less what he eats as long as its protein. Needless to say this causes many quarrels at times and not just about what's for dinner but about going out to eat, and what we're eating. Sometimes i think i over indulge in junk food to piss him off because i can't stand when he says you shouldn't be eating that. Yes i know, but I'm going to anyways. If he would just keep his mouth shut then i will come around on my own, like i have been and hope to stay on the right track for 2010. So far so good, but we're only into the 14th day of the year so it hasn't been that hard.
So today marks the day that the 'get fit for 2010' plan comes into action. Yes i will be exercising this afternoon. I had to scam a gym buddy into coming with me but I'm going to do it! i even brought my gym bag to work yesterday so i wouldn't have any excuses that i forgot my stuff. It should be interesting, i have no idea what to expect from my gym buddy (who also happens to be my boss).
I would rather workout with my husband because of his extreme ways he does challenge me to work harder just by saying 'I'm going to do this and you can try that'. We used to workout together and then i got pregnant and started sitting on my butt instead, which wasn't the best decision but oh well, now I'm paying for it. And since i cancelled my gym membership to the gym near my home, and haven't tried to renew it yet because 1) i want to make sure that i will be working out and not just throwing money away and 2) if i can get into this routine then i will be willing to add this expense each month to the budget again. In the meantime, its the office gym! Which isn't too bad actually, we have a lot of equipment and got newer equipment when we moved to this new building 2 years ago.
Well, off to get some work done and then get moving, wish me luck =)
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
testing..1..2, testing..1..2..3
So this is my first blog and first post ever...well except for xanga but that was so long ago it doesn't really count, or does it??. I guess I just want to go to a place and dump my mind. Its been getting really claustrophobic in here and I'm dying to get out. My usual avenues don't seem to be available anymore and well I guess I really don't want to know what anyone else has to say about my thoughts and feelings especially if they disagree with me or try to convince me that no, my life really isn't like that. So what the hay, I figured let's give this a try.
Well, that's enough for today, I feel satisfied that I've been thinking about this for a while now and finally got it done.
Well, that's enough for today, I feel satisfied that I've been thinking about this for a while now and finally got it done.
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